July 23, 2024
So you got called out. Now what?
Can confronting our own biases truly lead to a more inclusive society? Join us as we unpack the complexities of race, culture, and power dynamics within professional settings through Emily's eye-opening experience in a DEI book group focused on...
Can confronting our own biases truly lead to a more inclusive society? Join us as we unpack the complexities of race, culture, and power dynamics within professional settings through Emily's eye-opening experience in a DEI book group focused on climate justice. When a disruptive participant challenges the discussion, Emily steps up, sparking an insightful exchange that underlines the persistent blind spots white people often have regarding the struggles faced by marginalized communities. This episode emphasizes the importance of recognizing and addressing these blind spots and the emotional labor involved in confronting our limited perspectives.
The journey doesn't end there. We delve into the transformative power of friendship in challenging ingrained homophobic beliefs. Through a heartfelt personal story, we explore how a meaningful connection can serve as a catalyst for re-evaluating deeply-rooted prejudices against LGBTQ+ individuals. This internal struggle between ignorance and understanding highlights the significant role of openness in expanding our perspectives and aligning our actions with our values. Embracing discomfort is essential for personal growth and advocacy, and we share our experiences and insights to inspire you on your path towards becoming a more inclusive and compassionate individual.
0:00:03) - Unpacking Blind Spots and Empathy
DEI book group discusses race, culture, and power, highlighting blind spots and emotional impact in climate justice work.
(0:13:20) - Challenging Perspectives
Transformative journey of challenging ingrained homophobic beliefs, learning from others' experiences, aligning actions with integrity and discomfort in personal growth.
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Courthney Russell Jr: Why do you hate people of color?
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Courthney Russell Jr: Why are women less than. Once you
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Courthney Russell Jr: learn that, you start to address those
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Courthney Russell Jr: issues in a better way than just,
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Courthney Russell Jr: you should do this. You should like
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Courthney Russell Jr: black people. Why should I like black
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Courthney Russell Jr: people? Welcome, fam. This is Courtney Russell
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Courthney Russell Jr: Junior, and I'm here with my co
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Courthney Russell Jr: host, Emily Brocker.
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Emily Braucher: Welcome to Human Eyes.
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Courthney Russell Jr: We are two Americans with totally different
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Courthney Russell Jr: backgrounds and life experiences.
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Emily Braucher: We're coming together on this podcast to
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Emily Braucher: dive right at the heart of the
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Emily Braucher: three things that shut down tough conversations
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Emily Braucher: about culture, power, and ego.
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Courthney Russell Jr: The stories you are about to hear
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Courthney Russell Jr: are meant to humanize those deeply involved
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Courthney Russell Jr: in social justice. Welcome to the work,
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Courthney Russell Jr: y'all. Let's get it, yo. What's going
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Courthney Russell Jr: on, family? It's another mini episode of
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Courthney Russell Jr: the Humanized podcast, another exciting week in
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Courthney Russell Jr: culture, politics, humanity, and all of the
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Courthney Russell Jr: above. And we're excited to really discuss
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Courthney Russell Jr: that in this mini episode. So let's
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Courthney Russell Jr: get to it. But before we do,
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Courthney Russell Jr: I wanna just do a disclaimer and
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Courthney Russell Jr: just talk about the relationship that Emily
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Courthney Russell Jr: and I have. And we've both given
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Courthney Russell Jr: each other permission to delve into these
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Courthney Russell Jr: kind of hot button topics per se
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Courthney Russell Jr: and the uncomfortableness of the nature of
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Courthney Russell Jr: the topics. But please don't just try
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Courthney Russell Jr: to do this kind of work with
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Courthney Russell Jr: individuals who you haven't gotten permission from
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Courthney Russell Jr: and or you don't have a relationship
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Courthney Russell Jr: with. So with that being said, let's
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Courthney Russell Jr: get to work. What's going on, Emily?
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Emily Braucher: What's going on? As in what's really
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Emily Braucher: going on? Because I haven't talked to
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Emily Braucher: Courtney about what we're going to talk
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Emily Braucher: about today. So we'll see. We'll see
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Emily Braucher: how this goes. You never know. So,
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Emily Braucher: yeah, something happened earlier this week, and
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Emily Braucher: it's kind of been sitting with me,
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Emily Braucher: you know, sitting on my chest. And
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Emily Braucher: it's both an opportunity, I think I
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Emily Braucher: have a lot of learning in this,
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Emily Braucher: and I'm wondering if a conversation with
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Emily Braucher: you might just, you know, explore this
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Emily Braucher: piece a little bit and be helpful
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Emily Braucher: for folks in the meantime.
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Emily Braucher: So the context is, I'm a part
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Emily Braucher: of this, like, professional group of DeI
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Emily Braucher: professionals who are in the climate space,
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Emily Braucher: we're reading Lily Zhang's group book, amazing
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Emily Braucher: book. It's called Dei deconstructed. And, yeah,
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Emily Braucher: you know, we get on the call
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Emily Braucher: and people are introducing themselves. It's a
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Emily Braucher: diverse group of people, and none of
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Emily Braucher: So that's, like, situation number one is
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Emily Braucher: my space within this work. I do
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Emily Braucher: feel like with an intercultural communication background,
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Emily Braucher: but I'm always curious about my space
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Emily Braucher: the call, there's no reason for them
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Emily Braucher: And we're going around and having some
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Emily Braucher: asking questions that are, like, we had
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Emily Braucher: this kind of order that the group
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Emily Braucher: related to the book. And it was
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Emily Braucher: just kind of, like, strange. The facilitator
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Emily Braucher: at one point, he asks a question
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Emily Braucher: And so I answer, and in the.
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Emily Braucher: I can't even remember, first of all,
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Emily Braucher: he calls him. He's like, Emily, you
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Emily Braucher: I'll just start talking.
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Emily Braucher: And, yeah, I mean, I get to
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Emily Braucher: for people of color and marginalized populations,
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Emily Braucher: it's been like this forever. And it's
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Emily Braucher: And so here's what I'm sitting with.
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Courthney Russell Jr: And I remember our last episode. You
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Courthney Russell Jr: Exactly.
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Courthney Russell Jr: Yeah. You have to be uncomfortable, because
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Courthney Russell Jr: talking about women's suffrage and you're talking
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Courthney Russell Jr: about the LGBTQ struggle, and you talk
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Courthney Russell Jr: about trans rights and women's rights and
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Courthney Russell Jr: to reproductive rights. Those issues are things
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Courthney Russell Jr: most conservative side, leaning or misogyny is
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Courthney Russell Jr: just how you think is how you
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Emily Braucher: What I'm hearing you describing is kind
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Emily Braucher: of this choice moment of like, okay,
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Emily Braucher: perspective is being blown open a bit.
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Emily Braucher: Your blind spot is being shown. And
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Emily Braucher: I think I. There's a second there
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Emily Braucher: going to do with this? Right? Like,
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Emily Braucher: you can become. You have an option
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Emily Braucher: to become defensive and go in that
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Courthney Russell Jr: Yeah.
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Emily Braucher: And then you move from there. So,
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Emily Braucher: like, it's a step back of, like,
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Emily Braucher: of this choice moment of like, okay,
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Emily Braucher: I think I. There's a second there
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Emily Braucher: that it's like, well, what are you
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Emily Braucher: going to do with this? Right? Like,
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Emily Braucher: you can become. You have an option
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Emily Braucher: to become defensive and go in that
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Emily Braucher: direction. And what I'm hearing you say
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Emily Braucher: is that you take that perspective and
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Emily Braucher: you compare it to who you know
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Emily Braucher: yourself to be and who you want
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Emily Braucher: to be.
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Courthney Russell Jr: Yeah.
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Emily Braucher: And then you move from there. So,
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Emily Braucher: like, it's a step back of, like,
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Emily Braucher: you're not just riding on your brain's
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Emily Braucher: defense mechanisms, but you're saying, okay, well,
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Emily Braucher: let's align with my integrity and character
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Emily Braucher: and aspirations and go from there.
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Courthney Russell Jr: Yes. Yeah.
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Emily Braucher: Love it. Love it. Thank you for
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Emily Braucher: sharing your perspective today.
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Courthney Russell Jr: Hey, hey. Don't let them get you
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Courthney Russell Jr: out of dei work. You could keep
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Courthney Russell Jr: on doing it and feeling uncomfortable. That's
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Courthney Russell Jr: what it's supposed to be.
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Emily Braucher: I know, but it's so uncomfortable. I
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Emily Braucher: know. You know, give people pep talks
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Emily Braucher: every day like it's gonna be uncomfortable.
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Emily Braucher: And then the moments that I go
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Emily Braucher: through it, which is often, is like,
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Emily Braucher: whew. Yeah, that's uncomfortable. Okay, well, thank
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Emily Braucher: you so much.
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Courthney Russell Jr: Appreciate you.
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Emily Braucher: Yeah. I hope everyone has a wonderful
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Emily Braucher: day.
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Courthney Russell Jr: Peace.
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Courthney Russell Jr: time as we continue the work. Thank
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Courthney Russell Jr: you and much love.